I think I'm finally making my peace. Celvi/Sylvie and I have been on an inspiration cold war for the past couple of months.The electricity that used to flow when I touched the keys stopped and things became boring and started to fall asleep.Thoughts of her were not consuming me anymore.
But things started to change again. when I went through my scribbles from ages ago and found something that filled me completely, the way up to my fingernails.
And just with 4 chords the icey cold wall started to, very slowly but very promisingly melt.
I feel warm again.